Gorge days

The gorge days have been fun! Buffet yesterday and I may have ate my weight in clams. They have happy memories!

Today I ate my weight in pizza. I don't mind the no bread bit, but no cheese is going to hurt where it counts.... Hopefully it'll be worth it! 

I took some before pictures but I'm embarrassed to share them now. I've seen lots of them online and you have to look very serious in them or they're not legit. So I tried to look all hard and serious. It's not a good look for me. The after pictures are more fun because you get to look happy. I'll post them both in about 80 days! Maybe some during pictures too. The only full length mirror is in the Baltimore house. 

I've had to do the shots 2 days now. I don't handle needles well when someone else does it. So me doing it to myself? Not great. Hubs made me sit down after the first one because I was hyperventilating and he was afraid I was going to faint. Hopefully that gets easier....38 days of that left. Z said that I could use her princess band-aids. That might be inspiration for me!

Thankfully my thyroid is finally starting to be on the mend. I'm on the minimum "therapeutic dose" and I'm starting to see positive changes. I'm feeling less moody and feeling a lot more everything (which is bad too because I'm prone to random crying jags). I have slightly more energy and a bit more patience.  

We all went to Sunday school at the church today. Kids liked it, I got to spend time with C. It was good. Then services started and, as usual, my anxiety attacks started. I felt like I couldn't breathe and nauseous and dizzy. So the baby and I left. I don't know why I can't handle any religious services without massive anxiety. I'm sure a therapist could poke at it and find out by I don't really want to be poked at. Instead I went to visit my cousin, L. It was great to see her and I'm not going to let so long pass in between visits! 

Anyway, I'm going to go downstairs and eat more pizza before tomorrow makes my food centric self sad